God Bless You an im truly sorry for your loss. i have a daughter an i let her down so often because i just lost my mom an never had a dad or a family . shes 11 but acts 24 an nevers had the chance to see me happy or stable for long. shes seen me beaten used an heartbroken so many times its sickening. i am so sad an when i lost my mom at age 50 she overdosed an left the emptyness in me thats pain is unreal an i am so sad an scared an i think it made all other things barable since the loss of her ive been a sunken ship. my lifes in danger an probably my soul. i want your pain to ease cause death an losing one you love is undescribable an heals in time to some an others like me hurts worse each day . please pray i find a family or pray i can find strengh to not let go i no the pain it caused me an hate my self for not being able to be happy for my own . i feel unwanted an not good enough its a worse off feeling then dying i think at times . well it probably dont compare to a child loss an im sorry ok . please send god to take these demons off my shoulders for i pray i cant go on much longer for there sinking me in the sand an i can barely breath anymore thankyou for lisening to me, crystal

please help me find the answer to our survival

i need to relocte my lifes now in danger an imblamed for things i didnt do the police herte are twisted an worse off then the enimies themselves. im scared an unsure where to turn if there are any help or referals, links are ideas on how a single mom with very little income can relocate out of state with help please i pray i can receive it from you . u would be saving my daughter an my life from horrific things in action here . i am so stuck cant seem to make a right choice no more im living on a 327.00 income a month an 200,00 foodstamps. i dont no how to get help my family is deceased an no one to turn too.

just trying to survive another day . i miss you mom an wish there was an adult adoption agency because my kid an i want a family so badly . someone to love us unconditionally . we are so lonely an have no one but eachother . i no her lifes so hard an lonely at eleven she acts 21 an forgot how to be a child anymore. i wish one day to just have a family for me but most of all for her . mom an grandma died this year an dad only met once is in phyciatric prison in kansas. never had an uncle, grandpa, cousin or dad in y life but a step dad that broke my moms heart her whole 18 years with him an beat us down terribely. i am sad but my heart an intentions stay right . thankyou have a blessed day

well today i am trying to control my anger and not let my 11 year old daughter she drives me mad. At times with the feelings i feel mentally an my heart hurting so bad she pushes my buttons an says so many hurtful things . i say the harshest thought things back forgetting shes 11 an wanting to just take her anywhere but here. my moms gone now from takin to many prescribed pills , norco an seroquil thsat caused her to be takin from us at 50 years old. when i say its a hard pain ton lose someone , losing your mother above all things ive lost eats away at my soul everyday . i cant evil manage to be completely sober or un busy without the aching of my heart coming back an worse every time. my mom and i werent gettin along at the time but i loved her an she loved me . i feel somewhat cheated because i wanted to hear her say once she was proud of me for keeping my daughter an having a place an car without her help. but i do love her an miss her so much . its my life with luck right now, my older sisters in prison for using my name an i have went to jail paid fines an stilln have an open warrant for this but nothing i can do about it . my father i met once in kansas 7 years ago for the first time an was not a good relationship being i felt like he was a weird sick man an couldnt leave my daughter al;one . i very quickely realized why we were relocated at 8months old an never were to be found by him . i was let down an scared an had a church pay for my bus ticket an snuck away on a hellacious greyhound bus ride . he searched all the stations but i hid an eventually made it to washington to my aunts home. but my luck in life an being a magnet to weird individuals didnt stop there. the bus driver was friendly an i woke us to getting my shoes put back on an he said he massaged my feet the whole night while driving the bus. i was freaked out then to even fall esleep. well i could ramble on but my point is when my mom died i guess i kinda did too. my meama her mother also died inside with her an i had to pull the plug on her june 30 th. i have now nobody but my kiddo an ihave such a damaged soul. i again tried to contact my dad seven years later but hes in a mental institute for prisoners , daughters dad got 18 years prison , sister prison an my recent boyfriend i had got 5 years for a parole violation , guilty by association. im so lonely an feel so worthless i have no money or car now an force myself to live wherever i can even though im miserable doing so . i just wanted to write this cause death comes to the ones unexpected at timers an i wanted people who new me to read what i was going thru as they all robbed me , hurt me or broke me down to no self confidence or pride. i love everybody even my worst enemy can not be an ememy if onl;y they tried to fix things. im just so damaged an my heart an mind hurts daily ..........thankyou for reading this .......have a blessed day. crystal